aspies

35 years later I have gotten alot better at my social interactions. Sometimes I may fall into socially awkward conversations.

What makes it awkward is that I speak exactly what is on my mind and aspect to understand. I can be deep in thought about a philosophy of life and just randomly speak it.

Its not your everyday conversation and I can tell they don't know how to respond. Than I feel embarrassed because I realize I don't have the same rythymn of conversations. I usually don't say alot because I know if I start talking too much someone would recognize it. So I KEEP it really short. The only people I feel free to talk to is my close friends. Anyway. Aspies is a gift in some ways. Its tiresome for me others.

I have to forgive my self for not being a social graceful butterfly.